weird thoughts
03/08/2026
hi
i deleted my last text because i reread it so many times that i started thinking it was kinda cringe. i seriously need to stop rereading my stuff immediately or one day i'll end up deleting everything hahaha
anyway, i don't really wanna write much today. i just wanna briefly talk about how lately i've been paying way more attention to the way other people act. i think i discovered some new traits i really admire.
i really admire people who are calm, a little weird, straightforward, and self-aware when it comes to dealing with complicated people. i think everyone likes those qualities, but i'd never actually stopped to think about why until a few weeks ago.
i've always thought of myself as a pretty observant person, and whenever i'd meet people who were just...... okay with having friendships or relationships with complicated people, i never really understood why i admired them so much. i thought about it more and realized it was exactly because of those qualities i mentioned.
another thing i've noticed is that i really like people who are actually present. maybe it's because i try to be like that too, but lately i've had people be really present with me in a way i don't think i've experienced before. it's nothing huge, just little things. idk, it makes me feel really comfortable. but it's also kinda weird(?) and i feel weird even thinking about it because i've never really noticed how much of a difference it makes until now.
idk if this is getting too deep because i don't really want this post to have that vibe, but people like that genuinely inspire me. i feel like if i was dealing with someone difficult in a friendship, relationship or wtv, my first instinct would be to figure out why they're like that and try to change it instead of just accepting that they're complicated ! obviously i'd be trying to help, and i'd want to do it without judging them...
i don't actually think i judge people tho. but sometimes my tone of voice makes it sound like i do. idk.
